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I wanna publish my thought what happened and what I think about it.
Two years ago, while I was at my top - looking backward to my last 5 years (2024) - I focused and concentrated all my energies on English and Tech courses to raise up my technical skills. My dream was USA. No questions. And like a lightning- I discovered, despite my unawareness about her, even belonging both to the same place of birth and growing, that was living a girl in Miami, Florida. Much older than me and also with a family behind. But it actually didn’t matter. It wasn’t my intention focusing on her as a girl. My aim was get support and help to relocate, even for a temporary period, me there exploring what always have dreamed. United States of America, land where dreams come true. Land where from nothing you may become something and, if fortunate or simply kissed by the luck, (maybe meeting a billionaire on your own path, just because you seem to be pleasant to him) trying to be more ambitious aiming to become rich.
By the way, leaving this assumption for a while - considering that my goal was to clarify why I contacted her, I want to focus on what matter relinking to what I previously mentioned in another post.
She (Ella), calling her in this way to avoid unwanted legal complaints about privacy and especially considering her degree in Law, is a woman born and grew up in my same small town. If I wasn’t involved in certain circumstances whose reason has to still be explained by the Italian Justice system, there would not have been any difficulty to contact her - also using her family’s relatives - to ask gently to help me to visit Miami and USA.
This assumption is a clarification for who believe that - with no TV’s recommendations and supporting - nothing may be reached out. I wouldn’t have had any exigences, needs to be “sponsored” by TV. Nay, it’s the opposite. It’s the Italian TV and all surrounds it - that took advantage of this opportunity to enlarge their branches or ambitious, voracious thoughts of expanding. It would have been enough make a simple phone call to her and just paying - I would have been in USA, right now. Right? Is it enough clear ?! Even getting only a hotspot there - and living wherever around Miami city. At this time, I would be there - realizing my dream to live in USA - without any TV involving. May anyone ask me? To do what ? It shouldn’t mind you. It’s my business. Right or wrong, it would have been my fault or success.
At this time, I would stay there - with a 2-years experience’s bag on my shoulders - even realizing nothing. Just like it happened in Italy.
Looking backward, I have no doubts. I would have had more chances to get something there rather than destroying my happiness, well-being and health in this country - without getting any result. Consistent result. Just a decreasing curve aiming to the bottom - deleting all could belong to my personal life, better or worse.
Even, living as a homeless, accessing to temporary shelters, getting random food, I am sure that I would have been luckier and successful.
I generate a list of benefits I could have realize there - analyzing these last two years.
New network of friends, people able to help me
Better English speaking skills. No doubts. Today, I would have been competent to speak a fluent American language.
No discriminations about my profile, background and belonging to certain group of people.
Secure opportunity to get a job - even temporary or cash in hands. No language barriers. No excuses such as, “I’m sorry. We don’t speak English here.”
Chance to get admitted in some Immigration program - being involved in English courses and in the meanwhile - working part-time somewhere to keep my pockets balanced and capable to afford essentials expenses for living.
You know what? All these things without any help. Just me and Miami. I am a lion. I slept everywhere in these last two years . From parks, train stations, airports to the most warning roads. I ate nothing. But it doesn’t wonder me. I grew up in terrible conditions and these last ones have been my “school”, “teacher” which I have not to say thank you to. It built my own shoulders until I was child. I built small wood houses when I was 7 years old. No help. I escaped from my room in the middle of the night, hanging a gas tube to get out from the window when I was 10. I was born and I grew up on the roads - just like thousands of other kids. I have not to thanks anyone, today, for who I am if not myself for the majority and my family for the remaining. I didn’t have any other teacher.
This one, just to remind who believe in being owner of others’ lives deciding what and how their lives have to prosecute. What happened in these last two years? Who I am today? How has my career grown up ?! Is there any evidence? Is there any KPI that may confirm it ?!
No evidences. If I had to compare myself across the last five years, I fell down into an abyss. To the deepest and bottom part of my life without any light of hope ahead.
What should be changed if I had been in another place these same two years despite surviving and fighting with the country where I was born? Perhaps, and I am sure of it, better hopes and chances to live in a more decent way. I fought with a whole system - built to keep citizens like me- under slavery. No results, obviously. How could I have get something against a military enemy? No questions. The result was already written.
Everyday, I lived and have been living with excuses - built just to limit my movements and freedom of realizing something in my life. All the time I thought something - they already had been changed the course of the events to generate impossible barriers to overcome. Purpose!? Curious and fascinated by it. Anyone should ask it to the Italian government and suggest me the answer.
Anyway, concluding this evening expression of my thoughts (pretty lucky to have opened a personal website in spite of social media’s accounts where I was locked in), I wanna make you all understand how useless, destroying, damaging has been the Italian TV. This is called pure envy against a citizen whose evidences of something miss and currently are still missing. They punished me - through a violent and undignified gesture or better calling murder attempt - to “kill” me and my ambitions to make something. They created an expedient to keep me prisoner, locked in survival mode - having no proofs and evidences to make it previously April, 8 2024. It’s embarrassing for what this country did and is still doing - hiding evident proofs of guiltiness. I explored plenty of foreign countries to leave a sample of my blood, CT scans - appositely. Today, you can create whatever you wanna, but there’s no truth, Italy.
Just to remind you all, what would my last two years have been if I had been in the US. At least, I would have realized the dream I was born for. Alive or dead. Becoming someone or not. Rich or homeless. In a luxurious flat or under a bridge. My current situation answers itself where I am and what you all have done to me. You all are the cause of failure forgetting for a while, just to feel me less angry, all my dreams.
This is who you are Italy. The land who destroys dreams and ambitions. The land of nothing that seriously could interest. A group of politicians, destroyers and envious of who, since he was born never kept this country in consideration for his own future. Numbers, statistics, experiences and above all, the amazing amount of guys, just like me, that left this country should make you reflect of what you’re.
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